Inner Peace

Just when I feel that I am on my way up to a better, more peaceful life, something, or rather someone, a ghost from the past re-emerges to haunt me. It's a subtle presence, with lots of hidden messages. They leave me to wonder, to re-consider and to dream, but also to despise and to hate myself for having these feelings, which I so worked hard to eliminate from my system. I thought he moved on. I thought I did too, now im left wondering. I don't like being in this state of thought. I don't like breaking down all that I have built. The person I am today is a stronger one, but today I feel weak and unsure. I'm confused about what I am feeling, but most importantly why. Will I ever have a clear vision of what i'm supposed to do?

Everyone tells me to move forward, but i'm stuck here...